Today’s post is a very difficult one for me to write. Although things have kept going as normal on my blog these last few days, life has taken a series of heartbreaking turns for our family. The posts that you read yesterday and the day before were actually written on Tuesday and then timed to be released on Wednesday and Thursday. Today is the first day that I’m actually back and writing this post in real-time.
As you know, my grandmother was in the hospital and had been doing quite poorly. She seemed to rally on Monday, and things appeared to be getting a bit better. On Tuesday however, she seemed a bit worse. But we had seen her that way before and were hopeful that as with all the other times, she would pull through. We did however call my dad in Ottawa to let him know. He decided to drive up on Tuesday night. I left the hospital with my grandfather when visiting hours ended at 8 pm and we came home. As I waited for my dad to arrive, I was in my stamp room, stamping and blogging to keep my mind occupied. My dad arrived at 12:30 am, and we stayed up talking for about an hour, making plans to go in and see my grandmother in the morning. At 2:40 am we received a phone call from the hospital that my grandmother had passed away. My father, grandfather and I went to the hospital immediately. My poor father is heartbroken because he never had a chance to see her before she died, and he is tormented by the thought that she died alone. My grandfather – that was agonizing to watch. My grandmother was his sun and moon. Every moment of every day for him revolved around my grandmother. Every time she went in the hospital, he was there sitting by her side for 10 hours out of every day. At home, he was by her side always – day and night – helping her as needed. As for me – my grandmother has always been more like a mother to me. She practically raised me in my early years as my parents were working ’round the clock to establish their business. I lived with her throughout University, and after I got married, as my kids came, she and my grandfather helped us more than you can possibly imagine. In a lot of ways, her passing has been worse for me than when my mother passed away from cancer 10 years ago. Although we knew that she was gradually declining, her passing still came as a shock. I feel in a lot of ways like my dad. When I saw her on Tuesday she was sedated, on Morphine, and although her eyes briefly flickered open, I don’t think she was aware we there. We got home around 4:30 am, got my grandfather settled and tried to catch a few hours sleep ourselves. In the morning, as I was calling my grandfather for breakfast, he collapsed and we had to call 911. He’s been in intensive care since Wednesday. Thankfully though it looks like physically he’s going to pull through. Emotionally though it’s going to be a really long hard road ahead of us.Anyways, you may be wondering why I’m sitting here blogging and how I could possibly even think of finding time to stamp at a time like this. Frankly, it’s because it keeps my hands and my mind occupied when all the other “tasks” that I need to do to keep the house and the family going, are done. When I stop and sit, even for a moment I feel as though my heart were being ripped out of my chest. Although I know from going through something similar when my mom died, I will eventually need to find time to grieve, I just don’t think I can cope with it right now. When I do give in to tears, I just can’t stop. But when I stamp, I put on my music, and lose myself in what I am doing. I don’t have to think, I can just create, and for a short period of time at least, I can feel peace. So yes, I am going to keep going on my comment a day contest, and yes you are going to see me keep stamping and posting. The card that I’m sharing with you today is actually one that I made in August when I first received my Big Shot. I had been planning on sharing it around that time, but then with the new baby and the renovations on our home, I never got around to it. Since I haven’t stamped for the last few days I thought I’d share it with you today.
This card has a color combination that is very atypical for me: Summer Sun, Real Red and Pumpkin Pie paired with Kiwi Kiss. The background was done using the Faux Silk Technique. I then created all the flowers by stamping the images from the Eastern Blooms stamp set in the three above mentioned colors. I then cut them out, added the colored rhinestone brads to the centers and layered them onto my card. The large yellow flower is actually double-layered with a Dimensional in between (you can see it from the picture below). The “vines” which are intertwined with the flowers were created using the swirls scribbles Big Shot Die and Kiwi Kiss ink.
The dimensions are pretty straightforward: the base of the card is 4 1/4″ x 11″ folded in half to create a 4 1/4′ x 5 1/2″ card. The Real Red Card mat is 4″ x 5 1/4″. The Whisper White onto which I placed the stamped tissue paper (for the Faux Silk technique) is 3 3/4″ x 5″. I don’t have the heart to right more details about the card right now, but at some point in the near future, I’ll do a post showing you how to do the faux silk technique.