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“You are SO focused”

For as long as I can remember, this is something I have heard over and over again from family, friends and even acquaintances.

I always took it as a compliment.

A source of pride in fact.

Until recently that is….

Over the last number of years, I have really started to question the source of my focus.

Specifically, I have begun wondering if I have spent the last 10 years focusing on the wrong things.

Well, okay…..

Not just wondering…..

Because I know the answer.

I just haven’t wanted to accept it.

Truth be told, I still don’t.

Except that I have found myself back in almost the EXACT same place I was 10 years ago.

Thinking about, and dreaming about virtually the EXACT same things I was thinking about and dreaming about 10 years ago.

How?

How did this happen?

Although I didn’t see it then, I can see it clearly now.

I poured myself into an interest and convinced myself that it was a passion, so that I could rationalize my choices.

Over and over again, I chose to focus on what was SAFE, and on what was KNOWN, rather than take a risk.

Better to stick with what I know, and succeed, rather than follow my heart, and risk failure…..

At least that’s what I told myself.

Not in thoughts or words.

But through my actions.

Why?

Because it was easier.

There it is.

The brutal, honest truth.

And I’m finally at a place in my life, where I’m willing to acknowledge that.

And not just acknowledge it…..

……but actually do something about it.

Because I just don’t care any more.

I don’t care about what “other people” think.

I don’t care about whether I am loved by “the world”…..or hated….

Whether I am seen as successful….or insignificant….

Whether I am admired……..or ignored…..

Whether I am a “somebody,” or “nobody” at all……

I know that I am loved and accepted – unconditionally – by the people in my life that matter the most.

I know that I am fearfully and wonderfully made…..(Psalm 139:14)

I know that I have been blessed with a destiny and a purpose…..(Jeremiah 29:11)

And it is time to actively live out that purpose.

The purpose that has been whispering in my soul for as long as I can remember.

The purpose that is also my passion.

The passion that is ready to be spoken out loud.

Hello. My name is Andrea Walford, and I am an artist, a writer and a poet.

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*The image is a photograph of an original piece of artwork and poem that I created.

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