Have you ever felt like you just didn’t know what to say? That’s what I’ve been feeling lately. I’ve had so much going on in my life and so much on my mind and in my heart……but I just haven’t been able to find the words to post.
For the last few weeks I have been finding myself thinking about this poor lonely little blog and how neglected it’s been for the last year or so. It’s like a dear friend that you’ve lost touch with. When I was a fairly new mom living in Toronto I had a very dear friend that I met at a play group at church. We got together almost every week-day – we would talk over coffee, taking our kids to the park, going for walks, going to the children’s museum, just enjoying each other’s company – sharing our hearts, sharing laughs, encouraging each other in our struggles with parenting……after about 2 years of this, we moved to St. Catharines because my husband had been transferred for his job. Intially, we talked every day. Then as we each started to develop a new routine, we talked every week…then every few weeks…..then every few months……a few times a year…each time we talked the silences became longer, it somehow felt harder to connect…..until eventually we lost touch when they moved out east. I’ve often thought of her over the years since then, wondering where she is, what she is doing. I miss her and I miss her friendship.
It may sound silly to say this, but that’s how I’ve been feeling about this blog. At one time this blog was such a big part of my life. I was posting frequently and engaging with you all daily – and I loved it. Then as my life & my direction changed, I started spending less and less time here. Each time finding it harder to come back. Not because I don’t want to, but I guess because I feel like I’ve lost our connection and I feel like I’ve lost my rhythm and my flow…which makes it hard to sit down in front of the keyboard and type. I really want to change that and need to change that. I want to re-connect with you all.
Have you ever felt this way? Disconnected from someone or something that means a lot to you? If yes, what did you do to re-connect?